爱字如此，情字可耻！

爱情中，相信很多都是如此的吧？
爱的开始，总有一方是会主动一点的，
他/她会主动发信息，
他/她会主动地让你，
就这样的久而久之，等那一方习惯了他/她为他/她的付出，
那么在那一方想改变时，某一方就会觉得“你变了”，
对！他/她是变了但是只是用另一个他/她觉得可以放松的方式来对你，
但这时，习惯了某一方的方式来对待自己的突然变成自己不习惯的方式，
这时，你也无话可说了吧？
因为，这才是他/她真正的一面。
爱情是一种毒品，它会让你沉迷，等到你醒过来了以后，
才发觉原来他/她不适合。
爱的开始就不应该隐瞒自己的个性，
隐瞒起来只是会让你痛苦，
痛到你想释放自己时，
唯有用分手来做收场。
爱的开始，就不应该把自己的一面隐藏起来，
如果隐藏了起来，既不是一开始就以说谎来开始这段恋情？

在爱情里，我也不过只是个过客，
过了的爱情，客气地说声再见。
对爱情的任何改变，我无话可说，
但我不会认命，我只是听天由命。。

时间过得很快。。

考完试之后的几个星期，我的时间几乎都用来上网。。
在我考完的不久，该发生的事情也发生了，
该放下的也放下了。。
还记得年头的时候，与某某人的事情（不用我说也知道吧）， 
闹得沸沸扬扬的，到最终还是无法在一起。。
就这样的，用了好长的的时间来忘记，忘了却是新的开始。。
开始了某段恋情，依旧的，变成了一段伤痕累累的记忆。。。
回忆起当时为何会如此，可能是天注定，可能是我自己造成的吧。。
还记得年头时，开学了，还会烦东烦西的，烦恼这烦恼那，
烦恼该如何去应考SPM，烦恼该如何解决复杂的情感。。
如今，我那复杂的心好像渐渐的明朗了，
看开了一切，就是迎来了无限的欢乐，
在这一年里，
爱情让我学会了放弃与祝福。
友情让我学会了宽恕与包容。
朋友与朋友之间不应该有个隔膜吧？
有了隔膜，就是不真实的友情了。。
我看开了一切，看开了没有女朋友的日子我也会很好地过。
但，偶尔还是会寂寞，
无奈的心酸，看见别人有了男女朋友，
自己的心也不会好过吧？
时间过得真快，转眼间，SPM考完了，爱情也干枯了，
服兵役的时间也快到了，就在这个星期日早上，
哥哥明天也会回去他的大学了，
而表哥呢，就在星期六的早上也要回他的大学了，
剩下的只是我的表姐，大概一月中才会大学去,
我们去了该去的地方后，家里也开始变得冷清了,
我们还要等到农历新年才可以聚在一起了，
时间不长，我会珍惜！

再怎么说也过去了，应放掉了2010年，该迎接2011年了。。。。
Happy New Year......2011 hope is a nice year...=)

Barbeque.....

Hohoho.......tonight my house had a BBQ party organise by cousin n me....^^
Yesterday we went to shopping mall to buy ingredients.......

Then yesterday night we start prepared today BBQ food......
We had prepared salad like KFC.....quite delicious....hahaha!!!!

So that all for today.......

BBQ party ^^

真心话。。

爱到底是什么？
为什么爱会让人不顾一切的付出牺牲？
难道付出了就会有结果吗？
难道牺牲就值得吗？
那么多人愿意为了爱字而痛苦。
那么多人甘愿为了爱字而被伤。
爱，到底有何魔力？
人们甘愿为了它而束缚。
别人得到的爱情就是祝福，
自己的爱情叫做痛苦。
深夜的孤独，谁会了解？
深夜的寂寞，谁会来陪？ 没人。。
失去了你，只说声无奈，
放开了你，就是最好的决定。
别人说的没关系，自己确是很在意。
与你一起的日子，我很珍惜，
分开的时候，一句都不说，
只为了尊重你的决定。
是谁把爱情搞得那么复杂？
又是谁把爱情弄得那么神秘？
是你，是我，还是你我？
过去的日子，只好当做是历史来挽留。
得不到爱情，只好祝福别人的爱情。
朋友变情敌，情敌便回朋友，都只是放手。
该割舍的，都割舍了。
该挽留的，也挽不住了。
再说什么，也表达不出我的心。
以前的我，对于爱情都是随缘。
现在的我还能做得到这样吗？
可能吧~~~
再怎么挣扎，也只是垂死的。
无论结局会如何，只有真心的祝福，
才会忍心放手。
快乐，使你远离了我，还是我远离了你？
伤心，是你靠近了我，还是我接近了你？
对于朋友一个一个的都有了女朋友，
心里少许有了些羡慕，
可我呢？爱得越多，痛得越深。
期待的爱，都变成了无奈。
绝望的自己躲在自己的心里。
对于爱，我无话可说。
只好假装自己不在乎。
这样会好过一点吧~~~

胡夏 - 爱 都是对的

胡夏 - 爱 都是对的

我 要过多久 才能好呢
有好多辛苦路得走
走到口渴 眼泪乾了
人会领悟些什麽

回忆是记者
它会挖出不为人知的寂寞
每一个人的以前
住在心里 像事后的孤儿

谁记得 那给你心碎的前者
看着月光的河变成一片要命的沙漠
许多人都被骗 还硬说太值得
爱 都是对的
谁忘了 那关於爱情的规则
多少两人漫步变成街上一个人哭着
被抛弃的纪念 马路上漂流着
唉 人都一样 远离快乐

嘿 往事重演 又去爱了
好些对话是相似的
以前的我 它在闹着
爱有好多下集呢

命运轮回着
爱的前身看着时间苦笑呢
浪费一生的想念
最后才懂 什麽应该割舍

谁 被爱选中 做下一个

this song lyric damn touch~~TT

Damn boring day.....

This few days start lazy to write blog d.....haha
I'm this few days go shop n buy n shop....^^

Today go 3 shopping mall at Penang....
1st Gurney
2nd Pragin
3rd 1st avenue

At gurney bought 2 shirts.....
Then go Pragin bought 1 ps2 game, n go find Zhuan Yuan, me n cousin at the Zhuan Yuan work there ate.....
I take wrong plate of rice...lolz!!
Take diok my cousin's Tomyam Rice....haha
so ate wrong plate rice, then my cousin ate me order eh rice......
At the 1st Avenue, i have do the member card of Redbox, its free of charge ^^
But take back, my mum knew it and seems like she was not happy.....don't know why....
Maybe thier karaoke and my karaoke are not same.....Lol!!

Then i still have 1 more weeks to stay at Penang, after this week i will be going to NS.....haiz
Hope me at there will enjoy very much n much.......*pray*

Melaka and Genting ^^

Friday, Saturday and Sunday went to Melaka and Genting.......
At there have a lots of fun with family and neighbours.....Muahahahaa!!!

Friday morning about 5am, start our journey ^^
Reached Melaka about 1pm.......
We used GPS to search the hotel, but the GPS got a bit crazy, finally we also used GPS reached the hotel....haha

At the hotel, the manager said that one room only for 2 person, if want add 1 person live must add money......wakao!!! so money face....haha
Then we found the nearly hotel to live but the hotel also got live.....
My sis stay at there with my father and mother, the manager didn't realise that,.....haha

Then me and my brother stay at The Baba House then my father them stay at Puri Hotel......
The all hotel there got the Baba and Nyonya style....very nice ^^

Then we all round the Melaka by using our leg !!!!
Walk and walk and climb and capture.....haha
The photo will upload at tomorrow ^^

Then Friday night study economy but with open the television, i think i watched more than read....hahahahha!!!!!

Then Saturday and Sunday stay at  Genting First World Hotel read and read and eat....hahaha!!!
But i very sad, my shirt....T.T
AT there bought then didn't check, back Penang realise that our shirt wrong,.....haiz!!!
Luckily dint waste money.....haha

I think i'm going to find back my shirt at Penang shopping centre.....muaahhahahhaa!!!!

Hohoho...期待my Melaka tripz....

This friday morning wanna going to Melaka tripz... ^^
I'm very 期待 that at there have a lots of fun.....woohoooo!!!
After Melaka will go to Genting for one night.....
I;m going to take Econ books up there read......haiz!!
well, theres nothing for me write d.....haha!!

12月12日。。

最近与来越觉得我的生活变得好无趣。。。
可能缺了什么，可能多了什么，也可能没变。。。。
只是最近真的觉得生活好无趣。。。=.=

自从考完account之后，放松了好多，戏也越看越多=.=
但还是让我无法。。。。。。。。（ps 讲不得）

今天大部分的时间都用来看戏，所以没什么好讲的。。。哈哈

昨天晚上，与家人去了咖啡店吃了好多，也很饱。。
回到家，又看戏了。。。。。
戏，可能已经成为我的一部分了。。。。哈哈

没心情写了。。。唉

Exam, left two weeks, two days, two subject......

Aiyayaya..........today account really make me so mad....T_T
I'm scaring of cant pass this subject....haiz
But anyway, the thing that can me do is don't worry it, and keep moving forward....^^

Today when off from school, went to the "Kopitiam Wong Kok" not "Restraunt Wong Kok", that kopitiam was near my aunt house.....
We went there together,with my cousins and grandma, and aunt......=.=
They all back Penang d, my home was start to become noisy n noisier n noisiest (don't know my spelling correct or not.....xD).........hahahaa!!!

Sometimes we need someone but the someone doesn't need us because they need another one..... Quite got meaning......ps: this one is think by me!!

Exam left two subjects........need to study hard, i don't want to regret anymore......

Study.....

Today went to McD study with Shan Yeaw and Zi Hong......
At there study account, make fun, and felt so sleepy....haha!!
Reached there at 1pm, and study till 5pm....><

Then back home, study KC and online a while and watch few episode of anime then go sleep....haha
Today really feel tired and sleepy.......

HOPE MY ACCOUNT WONT FAIL AND WILL GET LCCI CERTIFICATE.......XD

Poem? First time write in Englsh, hope not so bad.....haha

Life.....

My world has been going on when i'm born.
When i'm new born baby, life was so easy.
When i'm new born baby, life was so light.
 When i'm new born baby, life was so free.

Now, life still going on,
realise not the little child,
need cares, need helps.....

When i'm teen, life is complicate.
When i'm teen, life is full of disappoinment.
When i'm teen, life is lack of love.
When i'm teen, life is lack of friendship.

When i'm need someone, there's nobody....
When i'm lonely, so what? Lol!

Last sentense just kidding....hahaha!!!
Today really was a boring day, mum and dad went to Kedah early morning, left me and sis at home.....
Recook the food that mum yesterday cooked, then ate.....haha

Damn boring day.....lazy read book, open up, haiz!!!!
Nothing write d, so bye bye!! ^^

PC Expo.....

Today afternoon went to PISA PC Expo with my sister, but felt so disapppoinment the stall there less than before, the laptop, the accessories, so LESS!! argh~! If continue like that, how i can buy a cheap in price and nice laptop?? Zzz =.=

At there also got bought something back, but not mine one, all is my sis and cousin's things...=.=
When back, at there bought tiramisu flavor's “珍珠奶茶”drink.....^^

Then many of my time spent on watching movie and play "cho dai dee".......hahaha!!!
Now going to read my KC!!! hohoho....!! Hope wont fail it!! GOD did U listen? Haha

Anyway, just left few days for me to enjoy and play with my friend, i will enjoy and appreciate....
cause when 2 Jan 2011, i'm going to Perlis for Nasional Service 3 months......

突然害怕了。。

昨晚，检查到了第几批去NS，原来我是第一批，不知该喜还是该伤，一直渴望着要第一批的也是我，但真的给我第一批了，可我是有点伤。。。。

可能是太突然了吧，就在明年的一月二日，就要从槟城到玻璃市，到一个完全陌生的地方，到一个“清静”的环境，不怕什么，只怕适应不来。。='(

告诉与安慰别人别害怕的我，现在终于害怕了，还真矛盾啊！

考完试就将要接近去NS的日子了，还真害怕。。。啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！
离开了，朋友们会怎样？不知道
离开了，会发生什么事？不知道
离开了，以后会怎样过？不知道
离开了，想起温馨的家庭，又会怎样？不知道
到现在才发现自己真的很没用。。
但始终还是要面对的，会拿起勇气吧？


漫长的三个月，要怎么过？会怎么过？
朋友们都说我会去"kao lui"，拜托，我不会在那边做酱的事情的啦！哈哈

昨晚，自从查到了之后，心情就有一点闷闷的，但也没办法了，只好看戏让我暂时忘掉，但只是短暂的。。='(

直道要睡的那一刻，我才知道原来我是多么的无助。。
伤心的整个夜晚，真的让我害怕，可能有太晚了，又没人跟我谈，所以就在那边伤心。。。。

可能这是时候让我学会独立，学会不再依赖了吧。。
离开这伤心地三个月，希望可以放弃一切，忘记一切。。。
学会独立，学会不再依赖，可能我是需要“学会”才去的吧。。。？

我接受了。。。。。不再感到害怕了~~~~

What the hack?

Lolz....today science exam, half hour done the section A and B questions d.....=.="
Then start to delay the time, then suddenly smell something very.....errr......don't know how to say.... haha
Smell that smell then saw the fan is smoke, wa! Heng Ee thing first time broken? The science stream students run faster out of there....haha quite funny..... after that continue do and sleep....!! Haha

Then, went home bath and eat and online, now watching movie ( The other guys) start few minute only damn funny....wakakaka

Don't know is my msn got problem or what...just now on my msn nobody online...maybe is my msn problem... =.=

SPM left 3 days and 3 weeks to go......KEEP MOVING FORWARD!